Tomorrow Had
Come
by Jessica Kirkland
In every season
of life, the Enemy would whisper the lie that I would “never make it” to the
next. I believed it. Time and time again, I thought his words held power. As a
young child, I never thought I would live to see my school years. Once I entered
school, I never thought I would live to see the next day, next grade, or
milestone in life. I listened to a very real enemy, even though I didn’t want
to. Even though I came from a strong, Christian family, I felt powerless to stop
the lies. Fear gripped me, stole from me, and taunted every careful step I
took.
I gave my heart
to Christ at six years old, yet fear still held me tight. Though I had renewed
hope, the whispers and lies continued to flow and drown out truth through every
season. When, I heard the words that burned a hole straight through, I was
nose-to-nose with what appeared to be the sum of all my fears.
“Mrs. Kirkland,
you have congestive heart failure. If your babies are born now, they will
probably not live or be severely impaired.”
I was
twenty-six weeks pregnant with triplets. In the beginning, I had been pregnant
with quads, but had lost one child at 14 weeks. I never imagined we might all go
meet Jesus on the same day. I mourned the thought of my husband walking through
life alone. I grieved for the children that would either die, be disabled on
this earth, or grow up motherless. And I burned with anger, not just because of
the oxygen mask strapped to my face as I struggled for breath and life, but for
twenty-five years of allowing Satan to tell me that I would never make it to
tomorrow.
Tomorrow had
come.
As nurses
whirled around me, I prayed Acts 17:25 out loud, “…You give life and breath to
everything, and satisfy every need.” I pleaded with the God I personally knew
through a relationship with His Son, Jesus. I knew He had a plan for my life
that was good according to Jeremiah 29:11. In my humanity, I struggled with the
thought that death might be His plan for us on that day.
Today, we are
parents to three healthy five-year-olds. You would never know they were born
nine weeks premature. The joy that Satan has stolen from me in 30 years, through
a spirit of fear, is great. I imagine if you strung each lying sentence
end-to-end, they might wrap the globe. Yet, I have promised to tell others of
God’s miracles in my life and do my part in setting captives free. Tomorrow had
come, but so had Jesus, and it is He who has defeated the grave.
“For God has
not given me a spirit of fear, but of power, love, and a sound mind.”
2 Timothy
1:7
Author
Bio
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Jessica
Kirkland lives in Southeast Texas with her husband, Robb, and five-year-old
triplets. She is an author and speaker whose greatest passion in life is to see
young families grow deeper in their walk with God. Jessica's newest adventure
includes launching Christian Apps 4 Kids, which seeks to draw kids closer to
Christ one app at a time. A recent release is a book app that addresses fear and
scary nighttime sounds called The Sounds of Night, designed for kids ages 2-8.
It is currently available on iPad, iPhone and all Android devices. When Jessica
isn't writing, you can find her cheering her boys on at the soccer field, or
watching her little girl at the dance studio.
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To find
out more about her current writing projects,
connect
with her at: http://www.christianapps4kids.com
or on her
personal blog: http://www.jessicakirkland.com
To purchase
The Sounds of Night at iTunes:
To purchase The Sounds of Night in the Android Market: |
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A very beautiful and inspiring testimony, Jessica. I'm glad that God has made it so you were able to share it with us in your writing.
ReplyDeleteLisa, thank you for introducing us to Jessica. Also, I wanted to tell you that I awarded you the Versatile Blogger Award! I will be talking about it tomorrow in my blog post.
What a beautiful testimony of standing on faith, despite seemingly hopeless odds. Love your story, Jessica and I thank you for sharing your words of triumph over fear!
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